I suffer from sever chronic depression. There are days getting out of bed is impossible the emotional pain is too much. I have thought of suicide more than once, and prayed God would take my life. I didn’t want it anymore. But in that room and in that moment I knew there was a higher calling for me and purpose for the pain. I knew God was speaking to me. Telling me that he wasn’t going to take the pain away, but I was to use it to create. I was to write, to act, to direct, and to feel free to do public speaking. This was what I was created to do and I had not yet even begun.
It’s been 7 months since I survived a ruptured brain aneurysm…I was asked to share the experience so that maybe someone who’s suffering as I did can get help with medication dependency and depression. I believe God wants me to share these life experiences to help others. The opportunity to do so has truly been the best medication and there are no negative side effects!
Sharon was taking a lot of drugs, drinking and nothing was making her feel good. I saw her family in denial of her behavior as they were scared too.I grew up with her so I knew things had gotten so bad she needed professional help. My biggest challenge was getting her to admit she needed the help and finding the best place to take her. I made a lot of calls to inquire how to get her into a drug rehab program. I got her doctor involved and accepted his advice. We finally found the perfect place to take her and called on a Tuesday afternoon. I told the man I just wanted to get some information and he said,“You have to be strong and do what’s best for her. Do you want your sister to live?”I said, “Yes, I do!”